Wednesday, May 24, 2006

There are aot of things i kept to moiself...

i can't bring moiself to say it out...

i am too used to bottling things up...

in fact...

i am scared to be alone...
i feel very helpless...

i can't breathe just at the though that i would be treated like trash and just thrown away, plungin me back into the darkness i knew too well...

i am afraid of the dark...

all the pain and loneliness i felt there were endless...

my heart is torn an battered...

mercilessly cut and slashed by the ones i once loved so dearly...

their hurtfull words ran through my mind endlessly...

everything seems so real and yet so unreal...

i can't seem to see or find moiself anymore...

why is the pain increasing with every breath i take...

am i dead or alive...

can somebody help me see the light...

words alone can kill me...

i feel extremely cold in the dark...

is this the realworld..

i am unwanted anywhere...

i have no place to fit in...

the world is so cold around me..

there is not a tinge of warmth nor is there any care and concern...

the feeling of being alone and not being koved and cared for is like a heavy boulder on moi chest...

i can't breathe...

i can't speak...

i am suffering in silence...

i feel that i am freezing...

its so cold...

does anybody care for me...

does anybody love me...

i can't see the road in front...

i am lost...

i am losing moiself rapidly...

can somebody save me from the depths of the darkness that is encircling me...

i plead forhelp...

but nobody seems to notice moi pleas...

inch by inch...

little by little...

i am losing moi sanity...

for how long more can i last...

for how long more can i keep moi sanity...

i am going insane..

does the one i loved the most love me...

does the one i loved the most care for me...

i do not know...

i am afraid to know the truth...

i want to see a tinge of light in moi life...

i am deeply hurt, badly battered, cut and torn...

i feel so tired...

i am living in pain...

can somebody heal me please...

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 5:48:00 pm__


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Monday, May 08, 2006

been on an outing on saturday with moi dear girl-friends during moi secondary years and we took some neoprints...

moi darling hasbeen spemding more time with me since i got outta da hospital... yippeee~!

went to see another doc..

this stupid doc gave me tranquillisers (did i spell it corectly?) as medication...

made me think if i have depression or something like tt...

he said tt i had too much stress and tt i should not stress moiself any longer...

it could get worse...

and then it would take moi life away...

hmm...

and another thing... i had taken some recent photos~!

would be posting them up soon...

once i had uploaded them...

into moi laptop that is...

HAHA...

weee~!

this friday STEAMBOAT PARTY~!

IT'S PARTY TIME~!

HOOOOO~!

_~.:: <3 †Misha- <3 Alex ::.~_
>> titledat 11:35:00 am__


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